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Me,
circa 10/2014.
I
am not actually this slender.
My
housemate took the photo at an
odd angle, and I look “longer” than I am.
That
being said, not too shabby!
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Remember a few months ago, when I announced to the world (or, rather, the teeny tiny portion of it that reads this blog) that I felt like a fraud because my dietary off-roading was becoming the rule, rather than the exception? Well, I’m happy to report that I’m doing much better these days—and more than that—I feel fantastic.
Perhaps
it’s in poor taste for me to talk about how good I feel and how well things are
going, considering the recent passing of my mother. But if anything, I am now more
determined than ever to start enjoying my
life, and that wasn’t really a promising proposition until I made some of the
changes I’ll talk about in the next few posts. Having more experience than I
care to admit with feeling bad about myself, I know that having a positive
outlook and feeling like the glass is half full is not as easy as just “faking
it ‘til you make it.” When you’re stuck in a gloomy, gray box—self-imposed
though it may be—it can be darn near impossible to find the lid and climb out. You
can’t fake it. I know. I tried. For years. While you are capable of
acknowledging that you have things to be grateful for, and that, in many ways,
you have a pretty easy, charmed life, your spirit’s response is, “So what?” It doesn’t matter if the
glass is half-full when you’re not even thirsty. Recognizing
that you are blessed doesn’t always translate into actually feeling good about anything.
Sometimes
we need a little help there. And there’s nothing wrong with that. I only regret
that it took me so long to find the combination of things that is working so
well right now. Will it continue to work in the long-term? I don’t know. But
I’m thrilled with things at the moment, and if a time comes when I’m feeling
not-so-thrilled, I’ll reassess and retool.
So
what’s going on?
